I am transitioning my work, and most likely my future blog posts, which I intend to update more frequently with new content, to my new website. Please go take a look, sign up for e-mails if you want, and take the opportunity to purchase my book from the links provided. Right now, I have a promotion on Amazon for the Kindle edition for just $7.99! The paperback is still $12.99, a great deal for those needing this type of support or information. The new website is at kirkrehn.weebly.com, eventually I will pony up the money for a true URL. You are also free to donate using the donation link, which, along with book revenues, provides me the ability to market my book to a more targeted audience and to support my outreach efforts to vulnerable communities. Yes, you can just buy the book and I’ll still get paid, but I thought I’d offer both options, considering the amount I need to raise to support more book sales. I’d love some feedback on the website, I’m very new to website building, and obviously using a drag-and-drop editor, but there is quite a bit of flexibility in designing it, and I’d appreciate constructive feedback.
Thanks again for being a loyal follower. See you on the new website!
So, apparently, surveys are like the plague. No one responded to mine. But I really need the information. So, here’s my plan. I’m re-posting the link to the survey in the hopes that you’ll be nice and loving people and complete the (short!) survey. If you’re naughty instead of nice, hey, I know the feeling, then visit my NEW website at kirkrehn.weebly.com. One day I’ll upgrade to a real domain name. Maybe after a survey says I should. (Tongue in cheek). From there, you can contact me anonymously, or not, as you choose, and tell me a bit about yourself and what you would find most helpful in a book about BPD. Are you suffering from it yourself? Is your partner or loved one? Do you just want to know more because, hey, curiosity is what makes the world go round? I really want to get to know who you are, all you anonymous people, because I love you and I want you to love me too. Wait, that’s codependency. Hey, I’m still working on my therapy workbooks, don’t judge. So, please, follow one of the two links below, and I’ll send a million well wishes your way. Or, if you fill out the contact form, maybe I’ll come up with something more tangible. Cause a million is a lot, I’d rather send candy. But, as you wish. So, here goes nothing:
Two quick questions, the first geared towards the lovely people that have taken the time to read any portion of my book, and the second is a general question for anyone to answer. Please respond via the Comments section, and please share!
Which theme/topic that was discussed in my memoirs did you feel you could relate to the most? For instance, depression, schizophrenia, borderline personality, drug abuse, etc. The book covers a wide range of topics, and I want to know (partly for advertising reasons, partly for reasons I’ll disclose below) what stands out as you read it, what resonates with you, what compels you to read the next entry, or, be honest, what entry or entries made you not want to read further? Why or why not? I don’t need a 5 paragraph essay response, just a few notes as to what, perhaps, inspired you, or helped you, or even what turned you on or off to the book as a whole.
I am in the process of marketing and advertising my book, something I have been casually doing over the course of the past few months, but haven’t had time or money to seriously handle. Given the above question, assume that, for instance, I was invited to do an author reading. What piece stands out the most, is most representative, or speaks to you the most? If you could pick one entry, or one theme, what would it be? What interests you about this book? If you haven’t read it, what would make you want to read it? And, most importantly, if I started a GoFundMe account to raise a small amount of cash for advertising purposes, using feedback from these questions to identify and target my audience, would anyone consider donating? “Consider” does not mean “definitely yes,” I just want a sense of what my financial options are, since that is a major constraint for me right now.
Ok, I’ll finally tell you what you’ve been waiting to hear. I’m contemplating writing a second book, but I haven’t decided on the content type. I think the memoir speaks for itself, and covers the major points of my transitional period in life (does that ever end?). I don’t particularly like fiction, and, really, I am still trying to target the persons that are diagnosed with borderline personality, and show how weaknesses can be turned into strengths, how world views, so often at odds with the way “the rest of the world” sees things, are actually special and unique, but that the “truth” is just a matter of perception, and learning to change that perception helps to form an idea of reality more in line with the ways others think. Which, I would like to clarify, is not to suggest that BPD patients think “wrongly,” or need to change to satisfy others. I do think, however, from my own personal experiences, that what I see and what others see are so radically different that the fact I have friends at all is somewhat miraculous, because I don’t understand their actions anymore than they understand mine. One thing I do not want to do, period, is write a “self-help” therapy book. I think BPD patients need support, I think professional therapists (psychologists and/or psychiatrists, not lesser-trained professionals) are often, if not always, necessary to help the BPD patient reframe their world view, and I think that learning coping mechanisms, through whatever learning method suits them best, is vital to surviving this devastating illness. But I am not a professional, nor do I want to provide advice. I’m not an advice columnist, and the world should be thankful for that. I want to write a book that openly admits that BPD is rough, a lot of the time, but that sometimes the most beautiful things can come out of the roughest situations. That’s much rosier of a picture than I’d prefer to paint, but the general idea is there. Now, enough said. If I were to write a “sequel” of sorts, but not a journal-style sequel, what themes would you like to see explored? What circumstances have come up in your lives that made you feel alone and unwanted? I know those feelings, and I know they’re not true. And I want to write a book that is non-clinical, non-self-help, non-judgmental, non-confrontational, just a book that describes what so many BPD patients feel, without necessarily offering solutions, but offering hope nonetheless, in the sense that the suffering is not so unique that no one else in the world could understand. I want you to know that I understand, that I’ve been there, that, yes, your experience is unique, but your feelings and attitudes are not, and I can show you that, just maybe, your experience is similar to mine, in some way, that hopelessness, helplessness and suicidality are not the only routes available. But I want to recognize that, for many, those feelings are their reality, they were my reality, I know all too well how that feels. So, what format would you find yourself most likely to pick up and browse through? A chapter-by-chapter review of the themes brought in my memoir, i.e., a chapter on homelessness, a chapter on addiction, a chapter on suicidality, a chapter on …. etc. I need some inspiration, I’m itching to write but the blank pages are killing me!
I love all of you for reading this post all the way through, and especially those of you who have followed me through the years, and those who have shown their support by purchasing my book. It means the world to me that I can give the world a window into what BPD is like. I’m reaching out to you now for comments, criticism, support and ideas, and I hope I get some feedback in response. Thank you in advance!
I set my sights upon tomorrow
Where the world is less filled with sorrow
When the time comes that I no longer need to borrow
Cause I’ve borrowed hope, and fear, and money and drugs
Wish I had traded hugs
Cause there ain’t no love
Between ho’s and a hard place
Trust me, I’ve seen that face
Pockmarked, sallow and base
Crying for more, ain’t none to have
Crying for peace, ain’t none to find
Only when you’re blind
Living the high life in the clouds above
Watching the world pass me by
Hey man, at least say hi!
Cause I see you ain’t so fly
I’ve seen you when you cry
So Hey, don’t judge, don’t hold a grudge,
It’s never too late
Pass me another
Yeah, that’s it
Rolling, spinning, feeling good
It’s all right in the hood
But when you’re mama comes calling
Don’t be on the floor balling
She don’t need to see her son like that
Out of whack
Scrambling for a sack
Trying to take back
Those good times, he once had
Now, it’s all turned bad
And leaving him so sad
In that moment, I alone
Know the world is so forlorn
Sitting with a needle in my arm
Hoping it’ll be just the charm
To pull me back together
Cause there ain’t no other
Nothing like crack to take you back to where it’s at
Where the moonshine’s always good
Where the cow jumps over the moon
And I heat up a spoon
Brown liquid bubbling up
Filling me up
So those times when I feel stuck,
Lying in bed, lying in my head,
I can remember the rush
Forget the pain
The perfection of injection
Hey guys, I just uploaded a new segment from my book “Borderline Affairs.” I hope you enjoy reading it! Please, if you have the time, visit my Facebook page, and click “Like,” and don’t forget that my book remains available on Amazon in e-book and paperback format for a very reasonable price, and I encourage you to share it widely. There is also a direct link from my Facebook page to purchase the book. I welcome any and all feedback. Please note, I have opened an Instagram account to encourage posts and feedback from the community, and I also have a new kik account to chat with me directly and discreetly. I hope to hear from you! I feel like the social media world is my best outlet and the best way to find others who are also reaching out for help and assistance. I’m not here to provide you with a cure, but I can assure you that life gets better, that life is worth living, and that, one day at a time, you too can make it. I did, despite all odds, and I know you can too. Cheers!